Tatyana – Chapter Six Part One

And we resume our story.
Tatyana passed a year of transformations, the frustrating life of being a princess, bind by the rules of high royalty imposed by her mother and society, the loss of her father, the plot build against her.
What lied beyond the dungeon? After imprisoning her, what would they do? Kill her? Leave her there and forget her forever traped inside the deep dark dungeons?
For the kingdom, she was dead now.

Little they knew, that this year was enough to wake the wolf inside Tatyana, and her deepest wish? To finish the Age of Humans. All that was necessary was for her to ask a magical chain to break, unleashing the might wolf Fenrir. As our ancient legend foretold that, then a human voice alone will break the chain,  unleashing the terror that is the giant wolf, who will engulf the sun and end with all life within the world.

And this is how the world became night.

Chapter Six  - Part One

Having lost most of her human mind, becoming a kind of beast between a wolf and a woman, Tatyana sharpened her wits, fangs, instincts, reflexes and even her voice.
She didnt need to scream to be heard from distance, from all aspects, her voice was the most powerful and imposing of all. Her past human life within the castle was a shadow of suffering cast upon her, and with hatred she could remember that sometimes.
She didnt had to remember.
She did it on purpose, She wanted to end all that was mankind at that moment, the current standards, the evilness, the lies, she wanted it all to start anew, she wanted to destroy it all, so they would have to start over again.
Hatred. It explained her emotions, thought she knew that the chance she was about to claim was going to probably end the world, she didnt cared.
The world was meant to end anyway, if it was not by her hands, by someone else’s hands that would come after her. It was foretold, it was the destiny of the world, nobody could run from it.

It was spreading in the wind, as Tatyana grew more and more skilled with her new life and self, the more wolves would gather under Fenrir’s fangs, waiting the day Tatyana would set him free and the last nightmare of mankind begin.
It was still night when it all began.

Tatyana walked the cave, slowly, going towards the giant wolf, It overlooked her and asked:

” What is it, Endbringer? ” Fenrir started to call her by Endbringer, a name trying to fit her role in this circle.

” Fenrir, might wolf. I can now free you from your binding, so you can close this chapter and end the book called Age of Man. “

” You are aware that after you do that, theres no going back, and all life will perish. Are you not? ” He asked.

” I care not, for my life is not endless, and i bear much hatred within this chest of mine. “

” Innocent blood will be spilt. ” He said.

” Then make is cascade down the hills and freeze with the snow and cutting frozen winds. “

” How will you deal with the cries of the dead in your mind? ” He asked.

” I will eat then, and make it my own howl. “

” Its decided then. Unleash my hunger! “

Tatyana gathered air and inflated her chest, she looked at the chain and let out a Howl.
A Thundering sound, as if every lost soul of the previous packs that wandered earth joined together and in unison let out the chilling sound, so chilling, that the chain cracked, and broke down to pieces.

” Weep now, all that is alive, for the Endbringer unleashed my ancient hunger, the Sun will be no more, and darkness will fall. ” Said Fenrir. ” Prey over your fathers, eat your mothers alive, kill your brothers and slaughter your sisters, all the creation, tremble in deep chill, for dammed are you all. ” he let out a loud howl, and all that were not wolves or Tatyana had their blood frozen, for chilling was his might sound.

The pack was agitated, and the moment Fenrir stood upon his paws, claws the size of hunting dogs, fangs that could contest with castle columns, standing, Fenrir was godly, his size haunting, even those in his side feared. Tatyana’s heart was taken in fear but even so, she keep dignified.

” Now go my kin, prey, prey until theres nothing more to pray, let the Endbringer guide you to were the sons of men are now, leave only when theres nothing breathing, but yourselves. ” Fenrir commanded.

Tatyana went out of the cave, and after her, and absurd and unimaginable amount of wolves stood by her side, countless fangs, teeth, all ready to thorn flesh apart.

” This is it, the last moments of this era have started, do they even wonder? ” asked Tatyana.

” They know there will be an end, they just never believe when its coming. ” Said Yakov.

” Well, no matter now, for the longest night in mankind’s history is about to begin. ” She said.

” It will also be the darkest. ” Said Yakov

” They are the ones to be blamed. ” Tatyana was remembering herself of her old life, and the moment her only joy was taken away from her. ” They tried to chain me, I unchained myself, and then,  i unleashed the end. “

” Are you not feeling guilt, Tatyana? ” Asked Heimel

” No. After all is done, there will be nothing left to feel guilty for. “

” Everything could be different. ” Heimel said

” You mean, i could be royalty still? “

” Yes you could. “

” Not using a mask, not to mention, the powerful men in Frostreich would never respect my will. “

” Do you doubt? “

” Yes, and i also want their blood over the white snow. “

A Chilling wind blows, its getting dark, Tatyana looks up to the sky and says:

” There will be snow today. ” and with that, she howls leading the pack toward the walls of Frostreich.

Now, fair people, would you let this old woman rest for a while? for the journey of her life was long, and my bones and body are no more like the ones of the lass i was once. and when im back, i will tell of what happened when Tatyana faced the walls of Frostreich.

Life Life Life

when time goes around
bringing the shine of Spring
back, back for us

Sleeping, was the life
Hoping, for warm days
Oh, when i grab your hands
Gentle wind,
Make me fly

The sweet flower of that day
When i couldnt see the darkness
Could in this cold
Bloom to color gold anew?

Oh distance
Make me dream of light
Water and soft sunlight
Make me soar, take me off
to lands beyond the setting horizon.

The setting horizon…

Mirror, of crystal flow
Reflect me my glow
Show me my truest shine
And lead me to where
to where i must go.

Remember
There is no delight
If theres no Labor
If the sky dont cry
How will the crops grow?

One, must keep very close
Very close and safe
That primal feel, we all share
A certain kind of love.

And throught the years, the ages. The days, keep dear the words i say!

Dream of, whatever you can
Wish, for everything you can
And work until your body ache.
Dreams will take, hope to you self,
Wishes will make you move your wheel
And make you remember well
That the truest treasure of all, is life, life, life…

Tatyana – Chapter Five

Young Tatyana was brought by Yakov to see his father, the thought would have haunted the mind of all possible humans, since wolves were twice the size of humans, and legends told of wolves the size of houses. She was well aware of that.

She just had nothing else to lose. Not in a sad way.
She was just a newborn now.
Newborns start with nothing.
And so she did.

Chapter Five

After some while walking, the day neared dusk time, and soft snow was falling as if dancing slowly, floating in the air. They arrived a entrance, it was not just the average cave entrance, it was clearly carved, as if it were the entrance to some underground ruin or something.
Yakov went in. Tatyana stood there, looking to the carvings, there was a huge wolf head on the middle of the arc, the columns were marked with runes, so old, older than the current runes used by the kingdom, nothing could Tatyana read, there were also carvings of chains, swords, and more wolves.

” Yakov, what are those runes about? ” she asked

” No one knows, i’ve never came to wonder about them myself. “

” They look very ancient. ” Said Heimel

” Older than the kingdom, according to my father. ” said Yakov. ” But enough chatting, come on in, its going to get real cold soon, inside is warm and comfortable. ” He said with the voice of invitation.

They all went inside, as soon as they got in, Tatyana saw a grove. Trees were green inside and there was a small pond to the side, with liquid water. it was very warm inside, warmth that the girl was not used to feel. The many wolves were there, looking at her, not giving her judging eyes, but, just looking to a visitor.
They never considered her anything else during the first moment, she was just a new acquaintance.

” Here is were i live, with my brothers, sisters… well everyone else. ” said Yakov

” They are all your parents? ” asked Tatyana

” Every single wolf. Of course, its just our generation that made through, there are no elders, aside from my father. “

” Why is that? “

” Father says that, the time of life in this world is bordering, soon it will all be snow, then divine blood will be shed on the heavens, and all will be water. “

” Can you believe him? “

” He is the eldest, and he knows more things than we all do. He said he lived in a world were not just some underground groves but, the whole world was green, and a lot warmer, and most wolves were smaller than us now. He says that one of the signals are us, the wolves whose size haunt most creatures. “

Tatyana remained silent, until some thunderous sound came from the inner parts, and as soon, she saw something moving, then a huge wolf was looking at her, big enough to swallow a cow whole with one bite, without need to chew on it.

” Who is the girl Yakov? “

” She says her name is Tatyana. “

” Where did she came from? ” Yakov’s father asked

” I dont know, she never gave me a word from where she came from, infact, i dont even know so many things about her, only that she is not your average human, she could have killed me when i tried to feed on her, but not only she defended herself, but nursed me back to health. “

” Why did she? “

” I never asked her, my father. “

” Can the girl understand us? “

” She can talk like wolves do, father. “

” Lets hear it then. ” the wolf focus his eyes on Tatyana now. ” You may speak now, Tatyana. “

” How should i adress to you? ” asked Tatyana

” This is up to you. ” Yakov’s Father answered.

” What is your name? “

” I had so many names, which one you prefer? “

” The one you got in your birthday. “

” My true name you mean? ” The wolf looked outside, looked around, sighed and finally started talking. ” Im older than you think, My true name become oblivious to your kind, but it used to bring awe in times ancient. ” He lowered his head, exposing his neck, and around it there was a giant collar, attached to huge chains, his legs were also chained to the walls of that cave. Those chains did not looked ancient at all, but they did felt like they were as ancient as they emanated a magical feel. ” My name, female human whose name is Tatyana, is Fenrir. “

No one really remembers who was Fenrir, nor how important he was Fenrir was probably a fragment of how the world was before the cold engulfed all and the current crisis began.

” I kind of miss the times when my name stroke fear into the hearts of mortal. “

Tatyana had no words for what he expressed. a wolf that size, was immortal. Not much surprising too, his head was half the size of a small house.

” Now, i have a question for you, Tatyana. ” said Fenrir. ” How did you learn to talk with wolves? “

” It came sudden , when Yakov and his brothers attacked me. “

” You just started to understand what they were saying? “

” Yes, but just the wolves. “

” Its natural. Humans were once part of mother nature and spoke the common tongue, but seems its not the case. Not anymore. ” Said fenrir.

” Humans could talk like animals? “

” in a very ancient time. ” he answered. ” Im interested in you Tatyana. In truth, i’ve been waiting for someone like you for ages. “

” Is that so? “

” Yes, but this doesnt means the person is you. ” He continued looking to the chains that bind him to the cavern walls. ” This gift has been given to many, yet many didnt even came to realize the existence of this gift. ” He paused, let out a long sigh and continued. ” Now i presume even the existence of this gift to be very rare. “

” Should i ask why is it so important? “

” I need a certain person, capable of speaking the language of nature, i need this person to talk to my chains, and make then break, so i can accomplish my destiny. “

” Why would i be this person? “

” Because you can talk to wolves right now. Worry not, i have faith in you, i will give you the right to be one of us, and if you can, per chance, talk the language of nature. Then i would be more than glad to have you break my chains. “

Tatyana felt honored, now she was part of that wolf pack, free to live there together with them. And be who she always wanted to be, herself.

Tatyana – Chapter Four

And the last time people saw the princess was when she was crossing the frozen lake by foot, running, running for her life, in more ways than one could be in that time. Of course she could have faced it all, of course she could have used her wisdom and put the nobles down. But her father once told her, that the worst predators would play with their preys before the meal.
What was a daily battle, had become a hunt, and even the prey showing capable of facing the Predator, it was the power of one, against many powers united. Her subjects could not make anything for her, and judging the nobles, they could easily turn the tables.
They had bigger voices, bigger fangs and a vicious poison. Tatyana grew so disgusted inside, the last thing about her the kingdom found was a carving in stone saying:

Here lies Tatyana Alexandra Weissberg

For the old kingdom, it made plenty of mixed feelings. And there was no more a direct successor to the throne other than the king’s brother.
But what really happened to Tatyana?

Chapter Four

Ah, Tatyana, the girl fled into the outer world. with a few covers of coat, her dog Heimel, and nothing more, Not even a piece of gold. Not that gold would help her outside the walls anyway, the human tribes who lived outside the wall. she drifted around the forest near the kingdom border on the first day, lost, disoriented, scared anguished and disgusted. But she didnt let that bring her spirit down, she didnt want to die now, and that was the most important thing.
She remembered what her father told her once: In the wilds, when night comes down, you must either find shelter from the wind, or make one yourself.
By the nighttime, She found a rock who shielded her from the wind, but while looking for some firewood, they found her. A pack of true wolves.

” Ah! ” she said in surprise ” Not good… ” But heimel wasnt. The wolves started to approach slowly, cornering them, Tatyana was very scared and only curled, while Heimel was ready to pick on the fight.
Heimel barked fiercely, showing her teeth, the wolves, in turn, also showed their teeth back at her, clearly they gave no importance to Heimel, their target was Tatyana. One of the wolves barked back and Heimel left a huge yell out, then one wolf jumped at Tatyana, Heimel simply jumped and intercepted it’s leap. biting its neck and leaving a serious injury.
With that all the others leaped, Heimel only bough the fight.
One leap trying to catch Tatyana’s Leg, Heimel tacked him in the ribs, tacked hard, the wolf left a whimpering sound, and hit a his head on a tree. but with that there was a clear line between tatyana and another two wolves, the two leaped, heimel bit one by the leg and threw him at the other wolf the two quickly ran behind the leader of the pack, the other two were unconscious.

And they start to bark at each other, as if they were talking. It was a very interesting behavior, Tatyana took a peek, she never saw her dogs have a chat like that, it was unexpected that her half wolf dog would talk to a wolf that way.
Things were not as she was used to, she felt at that time, that everything was different.” The outer world was really another world ” thought Tatyana.

But something started to get clear in those barkings, the girl was starting to recognize what they were actually saying. first she recognized a few words, simple phrases, but with a bit of time, she could identify and recognize everything that was being said there.

” Why do you protect her? isnt that girl your leash? dont you want to roam free? listen, we are hungry, let us feed and grant your right to roam free. ” Said the leader of the pack

” She is not my master, she is not my leash, she is my friend. Although she is not of my kin, i am the only one at her side. ”  Said Heimel

” How are you the only one at her side? dont humans cuddle together to survive the end of all life? “

” No one other than me in her home wants her alive. She suffers just too much, day after day, i cant quite understand why they do it to her, but almost everyday is a day of suffering for her in some degree. “

” And why dont her just end all this suffering. “

” She is not strong enough. “

” And you are defending a weakling, weaklings have no right to survive. “

That line was enough to make Tatyana burst, being that a wolf or not.

” Who the hell do you a… ” but she was interrupted

” Silence Female Hu… ” But she interrupted him

” No one tells Tatyana to silence, you insolent pup! “

” Enough! Get her! ” with that, the leader and the other two leaped at her.

Tatyana quickly picked up a rock and aimed good at the leader. Swiftly, Tatyana let if fly, the rock went spinning directly at the leader’s muzzle, spraying some blood over the snow. Tatyana stood up, the moment the leader let out a whimper of pain, the two wolves backed at her, she had fires in her eyes.

” Now listen up wolf, no one tells Tatyana to shut up, back at home i couldnt kill, i was bound by laws, but here there are no laws binding me are there? Yes i was a coward letting Heimel buy all the fight alone, but i wont let that happen again. I may be barehanded, but i am a human. Finding ways to kill things is my specialty. “

The wolf grown at her and then let out a loud bark

She barked back, as fierce and strong, and said ” Dont you try me, you’d better walk away. “

” You talk too much. ” said the leader

Tatyana picked up another stone and threw at his head, leaving him unconscious.

” Now who talks too much, also, who’s next? “

The other wolves backed at her, even Heimel was a bit scared.

” I said who is the next!! ” she shouted.

The wolves ran, leaving the leader back. Relieved, Tatyana sat down in the snow, curious about the wolf, she approached. He was still alive and didnt looked very wounded, but she landed a wound on his face that would probably leave a scar.

” Heimel, i know this is bizarre, but, i dont want him to die, i know he was just hungry, and i just defended myself here. But i am not letting this fellow die. “

” What if he had died with your last blow? ” Heimel asked.

” I would have to deal with it. this is the rule of the outerworld right? kill or be killed, feed or be food. I need no more introductions than this now, i felt death on my backs, and i am not denying i did. I am smart Heimel, i dont need much time to figure out what position i am. “

” Then why dont you feed on him? “

” Because he is not dead. “

” Kill him. “

Tatyana stopped, she looked at the wolf, unconscious, frail, she could kill him with ease now, in many ways. but she didnt moved a finger to kill him.

” I wont. ” She answered.

” Why not. “

” Because, i want to be a wolf now. “

Can dogs smile? I wonder, Tatyana might have wondered that too at some point, but im sure that for her, right now, Heimel was not only proud of her, but smiling.
Yes she did took care of the Wolf, latter that day he woke up, trying to stand up shaking the pain.

” So you are alive. ” Tatyana greeted him

The wolf let out a snarl

” well, woof, for you too, just hope you’re not too hungry, i got a meal here to share. “

” You hurt my pride female hu… ” she interrupted him

” Tatyana. “

” What? ” he asked

” My name, the humans named me Tatyana. ” She said.

” You gave me your name, why did you gave your name to one who wanted to kill you? “

” I dont know, you’re not in your best form either… i dont find you to be so menacing now. “

” But i could still kill you latter. “

” I would defend myself again, im not going down without a fight. “

” Yakov. ” He said.

” huh? “

” My name Female Human. My name is Yakov. “

” Nice to meet you Yakov. “

” What does that mean? ” He asked

” Means that im happy to make you an acquaintance. “

” ah… “

And theres a long silence, it lasted for some minutes… a nice smell was taking around the air, it was the smell of a roasted rabbit. Yakov started to make some weird noises, Tatyana looked at him with a weird look on her face.

” Hey, you hungry? ” she asked

” Not your concern, female human. “

” Its okay, you can eat if you want to, theres plenty for the three of us, right Heimel? “

” Go on Yakov, you can pick your favorite part. “

Yakov was puzzled, he hesitated on the first, but then gave in and started eating. desperately.

Tatyana laughed ” How long have you been hungry? “

” Shut up. ” Yakov said while he ate

The three spent a little while eating, for some reason Yakov stopped and said:

” Its… nice to meet you too… Tatyana. “

Tatyana just smiled back at him, and they ate the meal. That night, Tatyana sleep together with a real wolf. Not only, she also befriended the leader of the pack.

In the following morning, Yakov woke up early, and also woke tatyana and Heimel up.

” Im takint you two into my father’s pack. “

” You serious? “

” Yakov, you might bring great trouble for you doing so. ” said Heimel

” No, you saved my life, the least i can do is present you to my father, dont worry about anything else, i have caught enough food this morning, would you help me bring it back to us? ” said Yakov

” No problem, but why are you doing this for us? “

” Im not letting my new acquaintances die in the snow, even more, after what you did for me, i am very grateful. “

” But they wont accept me, i am a human. “

” With the heart and voice of a wolf. “

Tatyana got herself puzzled. she stopped and made a confused face, was her really a wolf? then since her birth, she was living in the wrong place, with the wrong beings around her. she felt a glimpse of hope, and a warm feel of happiness upon thinking this.

But not enough to soften her.
One thing thought, was certain:
The old Tatyana was dead. And was when she stopped and found a rock to carve the grave for Tatyana Alexandra Weissberg.

Now, she was just Tatyana

Tatyana – Chapter 3

Ah, but if you look back, Tatyana was just a clown in the view of the powerful. She was just a woman, just a girl, trying to do what a man was meant to do. Something she would never understand. What made her so different that she couldnt be as good as her father? She had every single aspect her father had, she had no aspect her mother had. She would have been a great queen as her father had said she would.
But they didnt allowed her to be. Not just it, They didnt listened. Tatyana had no voice left, it was easier for then that way, sadly, it would be too late until they had realized the mistake.

Chapter Three

A Month passed since Vyacheslav passing, the queen was a bit recovered, and Tatyana was back to her strength, a piece of her missing, but she decided that she would be strong and be herself, no matter what the others said, there was only one Tatyana as she was, and she would never be someone else. Too bad, since her mother still thought that no queen can reign without a king, and without thinking of Tatyana’s thoughts over it, she invited the representatives of the noble guilds around the kingdom for a display of skill.

The prize: Tatyana’s hand.

And she didnt even knew that.

The time Tatyana knew about the festival going on it was already too late, her hand was promised as a prize, the representatives of each clan already were on their way, and there was nowhere to run. But, she thought that if a display of skill was what the kingdom wanted of a king, she would show hers, and she would prove that hers was fitting for the throne. Tatyana, planed on winning her own hand, fair, in the trial that would be coming.
It didnt took long until the representatives arrived, once they arrived the partying began for a day or two, and for those two days there was no sign of Tatyana around. Her mother pulled the leg of everyone saying that they would only see Tatyana on the last day, and that was because she was preparing her to look bright as the sparking stars.

But Tatyana was getting ready for the trial, she would compete too. But nobody would know.

And by the start of the third day, the queen spoke:

” Now that we have partied, and the spirit of competition as a healthy way of befriending each other has been settled, may the ones who are going to compete for the hand of our beloved princess, Tatyana Alexandra Weissberg, come to the front so we can watch their healthy competition. “

The trial would be focused on two tasks, almost making it a tournament.
For the people of Frostreich, a king should be able to handle fire. As was the royal family’s responsibility to grant the people protection and wealth, at the given time, the ability of handling fire in many ways was very important.

The first task was simple, the people competing should make bonfires, the bigger the bonfire, the better.
And as they went around looking for wood to make their bonfires higher and bigger, there was one who just awaited. He just awaited and observed his adversaries, as they ran all over looking for more and more firewood.

By the end of the day, the bonfires were as huge as houses. But, there was one missing, the one who was just watching everything. Infact nobody knew who he was, he was there, wearing a hood and a cape. He just stood there, watching everyone else.
The others mocked him.
He stayed silent.
And the queen ordered then to light their bonfires.
But by the moment she ordered that, the hooded man stopped them, and pulled from each bonfire a plank. When he pulled the plank, all the bigger bonfires crumbled into a big pile of planks, who, the hooded man rapidly kindled with the nearby torch.

The other participants got real mad at him. But then, the hooded man said:

” Instead of giving you five separated bonfires, i unified them all, making them stronger, and warmer. And once everyone is sharing the same bonfire, they will also commute and unite, becoming stronger to face better the cold. “

No doubt, he had a better wisdom than the young ones competing for Tatyana’s hand. For that, the queen asked him to come forth and identify himself.
The hooded one walked there, and, when he removed the hood, it was Tatyana herself.

” Daughter! “

Everyone was astonished, nobody expected the princess to be doing such a thing, for them, she was just either dressing herself to be the prettiest lady of all kingdom in that night, or being very shy of showing up for her suitors.
But there she was, on the line, competing for her own hand, showing not only to be skilled, but wise enough to lead the kingdom alone.

But the representatives were not even a little bit happy about that. Until Tatyana spoke:

” And with this mother, i request that my hand becomes my own, i won it fair and square. “

” Tatyana that cant be done. “

” You hear your mother girl. Not only you ruined everything, but now you want to deny the glory those young men were working so hard to achieve? ” one of the representatives said.

” I never gave her permission for my hand to become prize, and i never called for a man to steer the kingdom for me. I competed with them as a equal, and it was a trial to prove not only skill, but wisdom, which clearly all those young men simply ignored. You cant keep a kingdom as strong and big as Frostreich without the help of the other clans, thats what Frostreich is, a cooperation between all guilds under the banner of a wise king. “

Her speech conquered the love of the people, but the hatred of the representatives.

” You are just a mad girl Tatyana. “

” Insolence! ” Tatyana shouted

” Tatyana thats enough! ” Natalie yelled at her.

” Natalie Alexandra, we demand Tatyana to be put into the dungeons, so she can think and repent about what she has done! “

All the representatives put Natalie on a tough spot. and at that moment Tatyana knew, her mother would bend.

Even thought Tatyana proved to be worth. Nobody was showing hints of acceptance of her future rule. Her subjects on the other hand, were amazed with her speech.
But the power was not in the hands of the people, it was in the hands of the queen, who was being pressed in turn by the nobles.

Tatyana knew of her fate.
And knowing of her fate, she ran to the wolf pen, and took Heimel with her.
She ran away as fast and swiftly as she could.
And while people looked after her in the old castle, she was shuffling the streets with her wolf dog, in direction to the outer walls. She was scared, she knew that even thought that was happening, a fate worse than just a few days in the dungeon waited her.
Because, just because Tatyana was trying to be Tatyana.

Tatyana – Chapter Two

Ah yes young ones, even thought Tatyana was a grown up woman by the date, her attachment for her father was clearly strong, it was correct to say that the strong woman, was just a girl without her father.
And thats how it was.

Chapter Two. 

A week after her father’s death, the mourning ceremonies would start. It usually took  seven days for the dead to be embalmed, then the rites of mourning could start. it was a custom for the royal family to meet in the deceased’s home for the mourning to start.
Tatyana didnt liked any of her relatives. Simply because they also never approved of who she was, she couldnt be herself, and even more now with her father, everyday, everyday would prove a battle for her. Always during a visit someone would talk to her trying to make her change an aspect of her. But Tatyana was happy the way she was, she didnt need any change, all she needed was the right to be herself, without people trying to change her.

She knew very well that nothing bad had happened with her until now, because her father was there to defend her. Now he was gone, for good. And no one would defend neither accept her the way she was.

” Im Scared. ” was the thought that haunted her head during that week, she wasnt just mourning, her’s wasnt an act, she was truly depressed.

By the sunset of the first day of the second week, the rest of the family arrived.

” Tatyana, Tatyana come over here dear. ” it was Natalie’s voice, echoing through the corridors, during the last weeks Tatyana keept shut inside her room, never going out not even for eating her meals.

” Tatyana! ” her mother insisted

” Shut up! Go away! ” she yelled back

” Tatyana, all our relatives a… ” but the girl didnt care, not even the littlest bit.

” Go away i said! ” she yelled once again ” I dont care about any of them, not a single bit, i hate them all, i know why did they all came, and its all because of opportunism, they are no better than crows. Storing gold for no real reasons, only because it pleases them to have so many! I, Tatyana Alexandra Weissberg, am not leaving my room. Now go away! “

” Enough with the child act Tatyana! Come out at once and face the family! ” her mother yells

” If you face a vicious snake you end either poisoned or dead. ” she yelled back

” Alright Tatyana, you want to be treated as a kid, so be it. If you dont come along, Heimel will pay the price! ” she yelled ” I swear over my name! “

It shook Tatyana’s nerves, she did came out, still dressed as if she was going to sleep, but she did came out. tears slipping from her eyes, but what could she do? Her life suddenly became a fierce siege, and she was the besieged one, and, she wasnt being able to push the besieging forces away.

Took a hour for her to be ready, her dress was white and she was wearing nothing but simple princess circlet. it was the custom, the next one to ascend to the throne to be the only one in white while everyone should wear either red or black. most of her family was wearing black, black mean deep sadness and sorrow. But Tatyana could see that they only had interest in the crown. When everyone sit down the table for the first feast of mourning, the custom was that the eldest child of the king and successor to the throne needed to make a speech, it was known as the last farewell.

The moment Tatyana stood up, she overlooked every little one of then, and she said:
” My father might be dead, but he said to me in his deathbed, that i should be careful. he said that a nest in the ground can belong to any kind of beast. and thats why, when walking on the forest, one should be careful. I think i know what he wanted to say to me at that moment. ” she stopped to catch her breath and keep on ” I am the one appointed to the throne, i am going to assume it and keep the fortune of our kingdom. “

” But what is a queen and a kingdom without a king? Right Tatyana? ” her uncle, Vlad Viktor Weissberg, said.

” Good question my dear uncle, a Kingdom with just a queen like my mother, is a kingdom dammed to ruin. But… ” She made a brief pause. ” I am not my mother. “

” Tatyana! ” her mother yelled.

” I will rule this kingdom alone! i need no man and no king to do it for me, my father passed his crown down directly to me in his deathbed, i cant assume the kingdom now, theres only a year before i can. But be aware that, by no reasons, i am going to step down the throne for no one! And with this you’re all dismissed, i am very tired myself, i need sleep. “

In fact she could still stand and talk strong, but she could stand for much long, Tatyana was still recovering from the loss of her father.
The family wasnt really huge, the king only had a brother and his brother only had two sons, and his wife, Elenoir Alexandra Weissberg. But there were plenty of nobles still around, Clans who used to lead the major villages and town’s inside the kingdom’s walls, and from them, Natalie would try to find a fiance for Tatyana. But she showed on the feast that she was aware and unwillingly to give away her crown to some other man that wasnt her father.

The Throne was hers, in her mind it would be hers forever and, no matter what happened, she should reign alone.

That night Tatyana didnt fell asleep, she ran to the pens, she was worried about Heimel, her favorite dog.
Upon approaching the the portal to the courtyard she overheard a conversation, it was her uncle and her mother talking.

” Natalie, i know you did your best, but nothing could be done. “

” Dont say things like that Vlad, everyone knows that i could do better than just trying to fix it. “

” Its a problem we can deal still. “

Tatyana was curious about the conversation, she was starting to boil some ideas over her head, but she wanted to believe it was about her father.

” That girl is a barbarian, Natalie, its not your fault. But if she were my girl i’d have threw her to the wolves. “

” Dont say things like that. Tatyana is a perfect girl… “

” Yes, i saw her display of being a perfect lady today. “

Tatyana was shaking by that point.

” She needs to taste some corrective. “

” What do you mean? “

” Isnt there something she loves around? Something you could use to break the beast inside her? “

” Thats too much Vlad. ” Natalie sighs. ” We’re not in need of such desperate turn. “

” Oh yes the kingdom is, i can see what kind of mad rule would come from her, i know you’re kind Natalie, but Tatyana is mad. ” her uncle stops to gaze upon the moon ” This girl sitting in the throne, will only bring ruin and chaos to Frostreich, and you know very well, we are the last hope of mankind. “

Natalie just looks down to her feet and replies. ” Yes… “

” Its getting very cold, im going back to my chambers Natalie. Think about your daughter, you know, the fate of the kingdom rests heavy on your shoulders. “

Tatyana hid in the darkness of the hall, so she would be noticed by no one passing by, and once they were away, she sneaked past the portal to the dog’s pen. She went to check on her favorite dog, Heimel.

” Oh, Heimel! ” Said Tatyana upon recognizing her favorite dog among the pack. ” Heimel, Heimel i am so relieved. ” She huged her fiercely ” I was so scared, i thought you would be gone today, you alright? Let me look at you. ” She examined every aspect of her friend, trying to find any signal of harm ” I, i am so happy you are alive Heimel. I need you girl, you are my only friend now. ” Heimel started licking Tatyan’s face, as if understanding what she was saying. Tatyana hugged her tight again, shed a few tears while doing so.

” You know Heimel… those last days… i felt so scared, so nervous, its been taking my sleep away, its making me a bit sick but… i feel so calm, so tranquil, so happy with you now… ” she drew a long breath in, and said in bliss ” I feel so good right now. “

That night, she sleep together with the dogs, these dogs were not just dogs, they were half wolves too.
That was the first night the Wolf Princess slept among the wolves.

The Next morning, Tatyana woke up and noticed where she had slept, all the other dogs were around her, so, probably that was the reason she could stand the night’s biting cold, but she knew one thing, once her mother noticed her smell, there would be beatings. She then, quickly stood up and rushed to the bathing chambers.
Bellow the castle, ran a hot spring, the exact place where the bathing chambers were build was the pools of hot water. And that keep the castle warmer during the nights.

As soon as Tatyana was leaving she heard two persons coming down the stairs, it was Natalie and Elenoir.

” You know… maybe Tatyana just needs a little of a man in her life. ” Said Elenoir.

” Dont be silly, that wouldnt change the girl. ” replied Natalie

” Maybe, who knows? “

” Did it changed you? “

” Im not sure, grew me a great desire, but i think im still the same. “

” Oh dear… im starting to think i should call the… “

Tatyana got on her towel and rushed past the two, she ran until her chambers, there, she shut herself again into her room.

” I need to start using my brains on this one, i know whats coming ahead. ” she thought.

Tatyana – Chapter One

Ah, isnt this cold so unforgiving in the winter? Sometimes i wish i was born in the south. But it seems that nowdays, even the south suffers from this everlasting thundra.
Nobody remembers why is the world like this anymore. The Elders who had memory from the earlier events are now dead, and all the knowledge about the earlier history burnt in what was the last great kingdom our world had.
I think that, as heritage now, aside from the small technology we hold, theres only one single tale.
And thats the only glimmer of our ancient culture.
My name is Yanatti, just an old hag from this village.
The years are consuming me as it will consume mankind.
Its just a matter of time now… But let me share the last story of our people.

A tale our people call: Tatyana

After the great plague of wolves, and the great Ice fever break, only one great kingdom stood. All the others were consumed either by man or nature. only Frostreich stood strong, the last hope of mankind, perhaps?
The Kingdom’s Royal Family consisted of a king, a queen and a princess. King Vyacheslav Viktor Weissberg, a very smart, fair  king, loved by the rightful, feared by the sinful. Tall, Strong of mind and body and with a fair black hair the height of his chin. Queen Natalie Alexandra Weissberg, Kind, merciful, and beautiful, some said she was the most beautiful maiden in the whole kingdom, long hair down to her waist, black colored as the night sky, her body was feminine as her behavior was. she was know as Queen Honeydrop. but the most important character of this story was no other than the princess.
Tatyana Alexandra Weissberg. Her face was simple, yet very beautiful, with her deep blue eyes that used to have sometimes a unnatural shine. Her hair was cut long bellow her shoulders. Loved by everyone, yet, loved by none. For her subjects she wore the mask her mother taught her.
But it made Tatyana’s heart more and more heavy, it was a mask, the nickname of White Faerie was just a mask for her. She hated it so much it hurt. Tatyana was not the kind of woman to grow quiet under a man’s hand. She was fierce inside, there wasnt a day where tatyana had to face her mother that rage wouldnt burst. soon or later in the day it would burst out. and when it used to burst Tatyana would go wild in the castle’s dungeons or courtyard.
As everyday, Tatyana had to live through a web of lies, denying who she was, obeying her mother, being a propper lady.

” Its Early Sun still… i cant believe i really have to wake up this early in the morning for such kind of affairs. “

” You’re clearly getting better with your vocabulary and manner of speaking, Tatyana my dear. “

” Was that sarcasm? Dear mother? ” said tatyana, her blue eyes sharp, sparking like a glass blade in the night.

” A fair maiden never uses this kind of word art Tatyana, she must speak with her heart, when the word is directed for her. “

” I cant find myself to like any of this. “

” You will, eventually. “

Tatyana and her mother used to sleep together in the same wing, and every morning, they had to wake up early in the morning, for Tatyana’s classes.
Yes Tatyana had to go on classes, classes about manners in table during breakfast, classes about dressing for the morning, classes about bathing, cleaning, every aspect of the morning had a class for.
Natalie, Tatyana’s mother, also was constantly policing everything about the princess’es behavior, as, the way she walked:

” Tatyana, look at how your spine is, you must walk straight, nose sightly pointing to the sky, always keeping your eyes well open, enough to show their colors, mind the way you close your lips. Oh Tatyana! mind the way you walk, you need to be more lightly, steep like you are walking on clouds, and remember to move all your muscles in your leg. “

And every time, Tatyana would draw a long, deep breath. and in the depths of her mind, she would be cursing like the most ferocious of the ravagers out in the kingdom.

After breakfast Tatyana had breaks from classes, and her favorite way to spent time was playing around with the hunting dogs of the castle.
She would approach the pen and they’d start wagging their tails and bark happily as she came closer with some dried meat pieces. Tatyana’s favorite dog was Heimel, a white, half wolf, half dog.

That day Tatyana was really tired and full of her mother’s teaching about how to be a lady.

” I dont want to be a proper lady… ” she said. ” … I just wish i could be myself, i dont care if i am attractive, i know i am the only daughter of the king but, i am not my mother. If i am to be the queen, i want to be just like father. i want to be know for who i am. i know he had to learn many things, but he is himself, he is not much different from when he is with me. “
She sighs
” I wish father were home, at least he would take me to ride outside, he’d show me the hold… i miss you father… “

Tatyana loved her father dearly.

Odd enough, that noon Tatyana’s mother came to see her only at the end of sunlight. normally, people were getting ready for sleep already, since the nights were colder much colder now,  the cold would only get worse, and there was either the risk of frostbite or ice fever, the dogs went inside the barn and, Tatyana headed inside the castle as well, where it could be a little warmer.
By the time of dinner, Tatyana’s mother finally came after her, Tatyana sighed.

” Oh, hello dear mother. “

” Ooh my dear Tatyana, ooh my dear. You dont know what woe has struck upon our kingdom. “

” Woe? What are you talking about mother? “

” Its your fath… “

” What is wrong with father? ” She asked with a shout. ” Say it now mother, what happened to the king!? “

” Oh my dear daughter its horrible. “

” What in heavens is happening with him mother, say it already! ” Tatyana was clearly impatient, even her fangs could be seen at that point.

” He has the ice fever. “

Tatyana’s world stopped there.
How could my father have taken the ice fever. from everyone in this kingdom but, why my father?  She thought. For her, her father to be doomed to death with it was something she couldnt stand.
Tatyana lost her strength, for the first time in her life.

” Dear? “

No response, Tatyana wasnt listening to anything at that moment, any attempt of contact with her would be useless. she then, began to cry, she cried so much she started to sob, she lost her strength to the point she fell down to her knees, then, she fell to the floor, and crouched.

”  Tatyana! Oh dear gods, Tatyana be strong. “

They carried her over to the chambers where her father was laying, ill, he had no more than a few moment left to live, but he was calm, happy, and, when he saw his daughter, he even showed up a bit of strength. he was a fair man, tall and strong, but laying down on the bed, his black hair and purple eyes didnt showed the former glory of that king.

” My dear Tatyana, what bothers you so much? “

” Father… ” She said, sobbing. ” Why you? Why didnt the gods chose someone else? The kingdom needs you, the people need you, the castle need you, i need you, father please dont die! “

Natalie started to cry as well.

” Oh my little cub dont you cry, where is that ferocious Tatyana i always loved? “

” She is here father, the one crying so much in front of you is that Tatyana you love so much. The fierce me cant live with the idea you are gone. “

” But i wont be gone Tatyana, i will watch over you, in the wind, in the dim rays of the sun, all around you, i will be always with you Tatyana, my warmth will be yours, dont feel bad about it. im not going anywere, you just wont be seeing me anymore. “

” Nor listening, nor feeling. I need you alive father! You know very well that if its not with you i cant be who i am, you know it! “

” Now thats not true Tatyana. ” Said Natalie, her mother.

” This is not time for a lady to be talking, i didnt directed the word for you! “

” Oh you rebe… “

” Stop you two, Right now! “ Vyacheslav, Tatyana’s father yelled at both. ” Tatyana you must respect your mother, she only wants you to be a bit more refinated. And Natalie my dear, you must respect Tatyana as she is, indeed she needs a bit of refinement, but the kingdom needs her as she is now. ” he said.

Natalie rolled her eyes, while Tatyana hugged her father dearly, still crying.

” Oh my dear cub, dont you cry. “

” Please father… “

” Nothing can be done my little cub. now listen close. “

Tatyana aproached him.

” There is only an year until you can become queen, but, be aware of the other members of our family, they’ll want you out so they can rise up to the throne. Be smart my little cub. “

” Who is going to be on your place during this year? “

” Your mother will, but she is not as strong as you to take upon the task, but she can hold until you are old enough. Try to be strong Tatyana, and be smart and aware of the dangers. “

” I will father. “

” The kingdom belongs to you my daughter, and i can only believe on you. If i was to put the kingdom on anyone’s hands it would fall. i know it very well. ” he coughs. ” Ah Tatyana my dear. Theres only one last thing i have to tell you. “

” What is it father? “

” I love you, my little cub. “

and then King Vyacheslav Viktor Weissberg drew his last breath. And with it, all of Tatyana’s strenght.

” Tatyana hold on! ” her mother screamed

she was so weak, at that point, she just fainted there.

” Tatyana my daughter! Tatyana Alexandra! Be strong my dear. ” her mother keept on.

but how could she become strong at that moment? the only person who knew and loved her for who she was, Tatyana had lost her father, her friend, her safe haven, her place in that world.
For her, losing her father was like losing the right of being Tatyana.

I wouldnt mind

I wouldnt mind

if i could live in a time timeless
if i could keep on a single place
i’d be by that old seashore
were my only role
was to enjoy the day and next whole

watching the seaguls flying over the sky
the waves on their eternal dance
ah, time goddess, if i had a wish chance
back to these sandbanks i’d fly once

and if it could be forever
even if being like a photograpgy
i wouldnt mind
i wouldnt mind
if it were the same sea

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There was once a little boy.
He dream of being nothing.
that might sound like weird, but, he had no wishes for the future, he had no aspirations, he was happy, even thought he cried every night, out of pure and painful sadness, so deep, he could feel true pain, as if blades sharp cut him strongly, he was happy, he knew it, and he never wished that to end. The days were gold, the world colorful, the lights were bright, even food was better tasting.
even food was better tasting.
He knew thought, that it all would end, he knew that friendship, that kinship, the bright and colorful days would end, he knew the doom that awaited him, yet he keept on smiling. he enjoyed, he laughed, he did everything he could to take all that up to the maximun and so he was glad.
he is still so glad, that he feels happiness when he goes back to his memories, under the cerulean skies, his past, in his mind, is view through a colorful and bright shade of gold.
He knew, knew that time would bring it, yet, he believed not in time, believed not in god, believed in nothing, nothing but the fun and happiness of his days, it was the only thing he had.
He had no family, lived with his parents, but, was all alone, he was not raised a man, he was not raised for the human world, he was raised by nature, by the mother earth herself, he did not wished for wealthy, he did not wished for fame, he did not knew what was prestige, he was not raised to live in the world of men.
Time passed by.
The boy died.
Became a undead, roaming the world, shining as the sun, making it better, following the light of a far off dream.

The Universe Chart.

you might not know, and there are too few things here for you to notice, but, most stories i wrote are connected in a web os universes, i call it simply Bridge, i dont know exactly why but, well… enough, here goes the serious shit, Enjoy:

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